Lonely

 
I sit

The tight black dress

Hugging my hips

Night is warm

Restaurant cool

(Should have brought a sweater..)

Medium steak on my plate,

Pinot Grigio in my glass.

I eat, but still feel empty.

Gazing across the table, I dream;

A vision so beautiful:

A man, slightly taller to my 5'7"

Beautiful complexion

Excellent jawline

Suckable, juicy lips

He licks them...

I cross my legs.

Dark grey suit

Black button down

Black belt, shoes..

Simply stunning.

His eyes catch mine..

Purely twisted elegance

As my mind races

With sinful, lustful

Ragingly sensual thoughts.

I read his mind.

He thinks the same.

He smiles.

I melt.

Waiter comes with the check.

I swallow hard.

Adjust the straps on my dress.

My sultry, seductive vision vanishes.

I'm left alone, once more

With a bill, Platinum Visa and my dreams.

Doe-Eyed

Can you feel the heat
off my cheeks and throat?

I feel it rising
from the pit of my stomach
to my Crown

It flows through me
like fire

You stare through me
until you catch glimpse
into my eyes...

You go into a distant trance
as you slowly realize

I'm not blushing
from your sweet words.
I'm crying.

Loved.

I am happy in my secluded space

But lonely in my heart.

My phone buzzes with strangers' numbers

Not friends of mine.

Never an attention seeker - 

but one that needs to be needed

Wanted.

Loved.